Saturday, November 19, 2005

Posting here now.

Thursday, December 23, 2004

It's a lonely world and life is kickin' the shit out of me. Tomorrow will be my one year blog anniversary. I'll be on the road, from Sacramento to Phoenix to see my mother, which I haven't been able to do in the last six years... about 3 of which I've been married. This morning I woke up before my wife, which is unusual because she works in an office across town (her earnings are a state secret) and I'm currently a bum (as in out of work, but other variations on the definition may apply.)

As usual, she is offended that I breath... this morning taking the perspective of me not thinking to put some tea on for her... my lame defense is that it is not my habit to do and on the rare occasions I might find myself in a similar situation I'm not likely to develop the habit... not that I wouldn't make the effort to develop the habit except I know it would serve no purpose... she can always find something about me offensive.

So this afternoon, once my wife gets home, I have about a 12 hour drive ahead of me. It will be interesting to see how my wife and her teenage son mix with the family surrounding my mom and her husband.

Being an anniversary, I guess I should ask myself... did I have anything worthwhile to say? Well, who the hell am I? Why would anybody care what I have to say?

To be fair, I've met a few nice people by way of this blog. I like people and I'm generous with my feelings toward them. But the truth is, I'm emotionally isolated and don't see that changing much in the near future. I think people (and with few exceptions, all) have the capacity for depth, but mostly they all swim at the shallow end of the pool. So in that sense I've got plenty of company in my loneliness. There's a great deal of fear in the world and it's not all unjustified. I've tried to face my fears, but the results have been less than I would desire.

So this is the end of Paradox... and may god have mercy on my soul.

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

It's hard to blog without inet access. Hopefully I'll put my current crisis behind me... Chances are good... either you live through it or die... what other options are there? Well, it seems in the case of some of my family, constant crisis is the norm... but I prefer a resolution (and I'm not at all afraid if death is one of the options.) If I can handle my financial situation, I think I'll tell everyone else to get stuffed. Don't know when I'll get back to blogging, but we shall see.

Saturday, October 30, 2004

Thanks to Rand for directing us to this open letter.

Friday, October 29, 2004

From the Weblog of Tomorrow comes Useless Speculation

"Bush told us he "looked into Putrin's soul" and found a man he could trust."

What do the comments recall about Putin and Russia via Iraq?

"Anyone else remember the photos of the MIGs our troops dug up in Iraq?"
"Don't forget that the Ruskies sold Saddam some GPS Jammers to try to foil our JDAMS."

"...during the battle before the fall of Baghdad that a M-1 got zapped by what the experts were saying was a new kind of RPG." I remember reading that it made a pencil sized hole.

"...a Russian "diplomatic" convoy got shot up trying to run to the Syrian border right as the war started up."

I also remember reading somewhere that Russian generals designed the defense of Baghdad.

This is the endgame in a real worldwide game of Risk except that each nations armies are not of pure color. We need to defend from enemies both foreign and domestic. One of them is running for president.

When you play the game of risk with good players, you often have to play one enemy off against another. I think the Russians and the Chinese are both better at that than we are. Our advantage is our friends... Oh, that and being the only superpower left... for the time being.

BTW, When playing Risk, the progressive army rules should be used with kids and the combinatorial rules should be used with adults.

My only question is, why is Risk more popular than Kriegspiel?

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Rand links to an article regarding the Bush administration rethinking the outer space treaty.

If the U.S. were to acknowledge claims to extraterrestial property rights, this would have the effect of financing the settlement of space.

I am such a dreamer.

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Very well said, a must read.

I've felt the need for 5 minutes myself when I see the dancing in the street.

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